The past couple days I have been having what is termed, prodromal labor or pre-labor. I did not have this with Aria or Miles. With them, when I start labor, I start and they were born a few hours later.
When this started two nights ago I was caught off guard. I was only 36 weeks, 2 days and I was not mentally and emotionally prepared. We had the bags packed, the babysitter on notice but emotionally, I was not ready to deal with what would come after Liviana arrived. I thought I was, but this pre-labor showed me that I was indeed, not.
As a result I have taken time to mentally and emotionally prepare. I had a prenatal massage with my doula Saturday and discussed the issues with her. I have focused myself and dealt mostly (not entirely) with some of my fears. I took a long bath and have been trying to relax.
I feel this is Liviana's way of helping me prepare. I feel very connected to her and I'm sure she does to me also. She has indeed helped me. As I sit here typing this I seem to be beginning another night of prodromal labor. I feel better about it now than I did two days ago.
So, I don't know if you all will be getting the "I'm in labor" message sooner or later. Either way, I feel better prepared and a little more at ease going into it.
A Change of Heart
2 days ago